A little while after I posted yesterday I kept having the thought come to me to go into my email and finish watching a free series of video clips I signed up to receive about a month/month and a half ago. I have a friend who suggested this series to me and some other friends and said it had made a world of difference in seeing, understanding and accepting herself. The system is called Dressing Your Truth by Carol Tuttle. I watched the first two a few weeks ago but hadn't gone back to it. I really liked what I saw.
So yesterday I went back in and finished the remaining several video clips and it was so good. I had a strong sense of which Type I am and had a really interesting emotional response. In a huge way I was immediately drawn to it and excited, but in another way I didn't want to admit that I'm a Type 1. I realized that the reason for that was that the attributes in Type 1 are things that I have felt criticized for. I've known for a long time that the natural brightness and joyfulness I had as a child enraged some people and it made me a target for people who decided that they needed to break me. During times I've lived true to myself I have had people in my life who have seemed compelled to try and tear me down and rework me into something more "acceptable" by their standards. I rarely felt that being who I am was acceptable and have been trying to fit into a type that is more "mature" or "organized." Type 1 characteristics have felt like major flaws.
It's amazing to me how beautifully learning about this and understanding it better ties in to other things I've been learning and working on. I think God wants us to understand that how He made us individually is perfect and to embrace that because within that we find our greater purpose. I've been told that I was sent here to be a cycle breaker and to help others heal, and that part of helping others to do that is for me to show through my joyfulness what healing looks like. That has seemed too huge sometimes because the process is hard at times. But I'm understanding more and more that a big part of my personal healing is learning to return to joy and getting there, even knowing how ugly the world can be. Understanding the naturally bright and joyful aspect of being Type 1 confirmed to me that the answer really is within myself because that's how I was in the first place. I think I've been trying to fit myself into Type 4 because so many strengths in that type reflect where my deficits are.
It's pretty beautiful to see how all the types compliment each other through their strengths if one isn't hung up on insisting that others be the same as them. I can see where the world could become such a beautiful, harmonious place through just honoring each person for who they are. In a group with a common goal, it would be optimal to have people from all four types working together with honor and respect for each others' strengths, because together they would be able to accomplish so much more than they could individually, or with one type controlling everyone and insisting that they function the same way they do.
This was a nice way to end my day last night, and my heart didn't feel as broken. My outlook has been better today. I'm glad I paid attention to and followed through on that nudge I felt to finish the video clips. I think every woman should at least take a look at this to see if it resonates. If you go to the link below it will take you to where you can sign up to receive the free introductory videos, and they send one a day to your email. To learn more specifically about various aspects of your type you can buy the whole system and they will send an offer to buy it for $95.00, which makes you a member for life. I'm not able to do that at this point but you can still learn a lot from the introductory videos and following her blog and other resources. I found a lot on Pinterest on what types of clothing, jewelry, etc. are complimentary for my type.
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